OK first off let me give fair warning, if you are in the least bit sensitive to the pissies, then I'd just back one's ass right on out the door, now while you still have feathers on your wings.

Been dealing with a pain in my ass in the group, since before here, from back to FMP. You all might know him, and i'm currently not mentioning names, because well, it isn't a good idea at the moment!

He plays in shit he has no business, and alot of it seems nonsensicle, but is far from it, but that's another topic. Right now I'm going to focus on the happenings of the last 24.

Been feeling a bit off for a few days now, came to a major head last night while I was chatting with Freedom, thank you by the way sweet heart, sorry if I scared ya. You were a great help. Last night, it got to the point I was feeling ike I couldn't remember things. Hell I couldn't place Freedom, and I've chatted with her since we got here! It was like I was me, but not me, somebody else as well. Lack of a better term, possessed. Then got to looking closer, which was a major pain, becasue I felt all gooey, like being bound by tar.

The more I tried to focus, the thicker this shit got. I know I souund like my butter done slipped off my toast, believe or not, don't care at this point. Reality is reality. Anyway I finally just had to send out a call for help, and bail. It was getting to the point I could not breathe, like being constricted by a snake, a large ass mother fucker at that. The more I focus on an area the tighter it would get in that spot. To 'have a look about, using not the physical eyes, became dark, like something was covering my 'eye'. I tried to let energy flow upward, to rise the shit off, and it became like a cap, covering my crown. I tried to move my hands, it became like cords, getting tighter and tighter, until my hands were actually cold from lack of circulation.

Whatever this bitch was, it was playing for keeps. There were a couple times, I seriously felt like my lungs were gonna burst from lack of air.

Ok, fighting was not an option it seemed. I was seriously at a poiunt of just lying down, and stopping breathing, stopping fighting.

BULLSHIT!! THOUGH SHALT NOT FUCK WITH NOVIA IN HER OWN FUCKIN' SPACE!!!!!!!

Anyways figured the safest was to deal with this asshole was to play on higher turf, my turf.

A shadow. My whole problem was a fucking shadow!!! Seems I had not beenpaying attention. Guess one should not blow one's top at a person who's mental capacity is far lower than their magickal one. This son of a bitch, one of pain in my asses 'minions' I guess is the best way to describe knew his bud was being threatened, and decided to make sure lil ole me was outta the game, so to speak, bull shit, though shalt not keep the upper hand!

Anyways once I got the clue as to what the fuck it was, all bets were off, gloves were off, and let's just say bubye shadow guy. Still feeling extrememly drained this morning, totally pissed, and trying like hell not to fuck this little punk totally up!!!

Soooooooooooooooooo how was your night? LOL

You know what really pisses me off about this bullshit?

I hate having someone force me into practising magick!

I know it, I live it, I just don't practise it.

That and it feels like having someone break into your house. It feels dirty, violated, and that my dear pisses me off even more than having to intentionally, without the normal fact of it being, do magick! grrrrrrrrr

Novia,so sorry that you are feeling like this. Not a lot I can do or really say. Sending you lotz of good engeries.

BB
In Harmony & Peace
LRH

Wow Novia,

Good luck with the situtation. It sound positively terrifying, but if there is anything we can do to help, let us know.

Novia,

Much love and light coming your way.

NO ONE has the right to atatack someone as you were attacked. If there is anything I can do, I am here.

Blessings,

Was hoping not have worried you luv when I bailed from chat last night. I am sooo sorry to hav worried you.

Am doing much better thank you all.

Went in this morning and took me a hot sandalwwod tubbies, drying head to toe, one swipe, tossed the towel and my jammmies along with the bed linens into the laundry. Clean sheets, and jammies for tonight. Not chancing any ick hangin on, lol.

Was a purely etherical encounter, so no mudane way to deal with it.

Short version, a past person in my life, maker of shadows, one of which paid me a visit last night cause his bud got his ass kicked outta here, not to mention had a little eviction into etherical regions, done to him, so was a vengance sorta thing.

TY all again. Seems problem solved, am just gonna have to make sure sheilds are in place, and I keep one eye to the rear at all times.

Hate sneak attacks from the rear when I ain't payin' attention. And someone once said 'psychic' attacks don't haapen, sheesh someone tell the ethericals that please! ROFLMAO

You know though, one thing, it does serve to remind me just how much goes on in our world, unseen, unknown, and unrealized by soooooo many.

Are they the lucky one's to live in such ingnorance? or are we the lucky one's who do? who is the unluckier of the two?

I would rather have my eyes open. One misses so much otherwise. 'Sides, I'm nosey! LOL

Novia
You did what you had to do! Be proud & strong.
I hope that this shadow doesn't try anything with you again, by the sounds of your ass kicking, he won't!
Positive energies being sent your way
Angel

Sometimes I wonder. Wishing not to know some things, but then I think about it, and realize I wouldn't be me otherwise.

Sure some of the shit known, sucks like hell, but the completeness, the connectness, outweighs it all.

Thank you all! geeeeeeeee somebody really likes me! Mikey, they like me, lol.