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Posted Tue Mar 18, 2008 11:13 am...
I find of late, months actually now that I am having troubles even reading posts on not only this forum but another I belong to as well. (Worse there as it is a kundalini forum, full of overly energized folk!
It is bringing me to the point of tears as I want so badly to read and learn about all of , but I cannot even get thru one post in one sitting without hop skip jumping to get thru it, to move out of it.
The pressure grows in my head, like air pressure, (see bob post on inner sounds someplace, can't even recall where as I only skim titles to find one that jumps out enough to make me stop, and hope it is short enough.) This is why sometimes my replies are little off as I have read the initial post, and maybe a few replies, but have to post what I feel drawn to post, and get the heck out!
I have also noticed at night I will wake up, lately right at, or having me awake at 11:11. I do not notice this time during the day only during the night, and my feet feel as if I have been walking on hot pavement. I have to get up, move about the chilly house to cool my feet back down, or use a foot lotion containing menthol to cool them they are that hot. last night I had to sleep holding onto a wood leopard I have.
The posts that are more in fun, or are more no spiritual/majickal lol, are not as bad, as they are not energetically biased, only fun.
As I sit here even typing this, I wish I could find an ice pick and poke it thru my ear to release this pressure.
Books that are written with heart, and soul, even magazines, I find it growingly difficult to concentrate enough to read a story. The soul the writers pour into their articles come thru with blantant obviousness i wonder how others are not noticing it, I guess they do since they contiune to buy them, drawn unknowingly by the energy fed into them, making them very good magazines/books.
As far as my books go, I cannot get thru more than a page, and that's hops skip jump reading.
The longer I stay on sites, the more it grows, feeling like, well hell no other way to put it than I am expanding. Feeling like the blueberry girl on willy wonka! From he head it heads down my shoulders to my heart area. My heart rate actually increases. I feels as if it is going to jump out of my chest. Given too much time I beigin to feel short of breathe. (I've actually left and returned to add to this post as it become a bit too much to stay here typing this post even.)
help! Please! I know that I am going thru some sort of change, but ENOUGH ALREADY!!!!!! sheesh!
It is bringing me to the point of tears as I want so badly to read and learn about all of , but I cannot even get thru one post in one sitting without hop skip jumping to get thru it, to move out of it.
The pressure grows in my head, like air pressure, (see bob post on inner sounds someplace, can't even recall where as I only skim titles to find one that jumps out enough to make me stop, and hope it is short enough.) This is why sometimes my replies are little off as I have read the initial post, and maybe a few replies, but have to post what I feel drawn to post, and get the heck out!
I have also noticed at night I will wake up, lately right at, or having me awake at 11:11. I do not notice this time during the day only during the night, and my feet feel as if I have been walking on hot pavement. I have to get up, move about the chilly house to cool my feet back down, or use a foot lotion containing menthol to cool them they are that hot. last night I had to sleep holding onto a wood leopard I have.
The posts that are more in fun, or are more no spiritual/majickal lol, are not as bad, as they are not energetically biased, only fun.
As I sit here even typing this, I wish I could find an ice pick and poke it thru my ear to release this pressure.
Books that are written with heart, and soul, even magazines, I find it growingly difficult to concentrate enough to read a story. The soul the writers pour into their articles come thru with blantant obviousness i wonder how others are not noticing it, I guess they do since they contiune to buy them, drawn unknowingly by the energy fed into them, making them very good magazines/books.
As far as my books go, I cannot get thru more than a page, and that's hops skip jump reading.
The longer I stay on sites, the more it grows, feeling like, well hell no other way to put it than I am expanding. Feeling like the blueberry girl on willy wonka! From he head it heads down my shoulders to my heart area. My heart rate actually increases. I feels as if it is going to jump out of my chest. Given too much time I beigin to feel short of breathe. (I've actually left and returned to add to this post as it become a bit too much to stay here typing this post even.)
help! Please! I know that I am going thru some sort of change, but ENOUGH ALREADY!!!!!! sheesh!
I yam what I yam, and that's all that I yam!!















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