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Posted Wed Jul 23, 2008 12:15 pm...
Greetings Everyone,
How is everyone? Well I have woken up early this morning but will be taking my medication again so I can go back to bed. I had an awful day yesterday and I don't want to deal with anything today. And I feel like all I do lately is complain. Ray and I talked yesterday and his paycheck this week won't cover the bills so I don't know what I'm going to do (clue). So needless to say I started crying and got upset and then lo and behold in the middle of all of that Alex called and started screaming and cussing at me because his phone was broke. He really didn't like me asking if your phone is broke how are you calling me. That kid makes me so mad (fit). Then he calls me back demanding that I bring him a phone book. Please someone tell me if you don't have a phone why do you need a phonebook. So needless to say I didn't go over there and I didn't bring him a phonebook either. But anyhow I needless to say ended up getting so upset that I had another episode and this one was pretty bad (faint). So I took my medicine and went to bed. Lo and behold my phone starts ringing this morning and it is Alex. I didn't answer it but all I could think was your phone is working fine if you can call me at all hours of the day and night. Than last night I let Sage in the house and needless to say this dog stunk like you would not believe. He definately rolled around in something he shouldn't have. So needless to say I had to give him a bath which ended up being quite humorous. Here I was trying to drag this dog who decided he was going to sit down and not budge. I ended up threatening to take him outside and do it with the waterhose. Then I dragged him to the tub and got his front in and pushed the rest of him in. Needless to say we both got a really good bath. I had to laugh after we got done because he got a bath, I got a bath, and my bathroom floor got cleaned all in one shot LOL. I'm sorry that I don't do anything but complain. I know it is probably getting old with everyone. But I do want to say that this group is the only thing right now that makes me feel better. You all have been so supportive and have given me such great advice and support. I truly do see you all as friends and you all are the only ones I can talk to. I'm tired and I want to cry right now. I have come to the point that I'm thinking of doing a binding on everyone so that they stop their shit. I know this is wrong but I'm at the end of my rope and I really want it to stop. I was doing good and then he calls yesterday and I'm telling you he cussed me like I was a piece of garbage. Then when mom wanted to me to go pick him up and take him to Wal-Mart I told her absolutely not. I didn't want to see him nor was I putting him in the same car as me. So needless to say she took him to Wal-Mart. If she thinks he is such an easy person and that all you have to do is talk to him let her do it. Trust me after a while when she tells him no he will turn on her just like he does with me. But I know she doesn't believe that anymore because if she did she would not keep trying to get me to deal with him all the time. But anyhow. I am heading to the Topics Section. I want to get a few things off of there. I will talk to everyone later. Again everyone thank you for all your support. And if I'm complaining to much you can tell me to shut up. I appreciate all your help and support. I hope everyone has a great day.
How is everyone? Well I have woken up early this morning but will be taking my medication again so I can go back to bed. I had an awful day yesterday and I don't want to deal with anything today. And I feel like all I do lately is complain. Ray and I talked yesterday and his paycheck this week won't cover the bills so I don't know what I'm going to do (clue). So needless to say I started crying and got upset and then lo and behold in the middle of all of that Alex called and started screaming and cussing at me because his phone was broke. He really didn't like me asking if your phone is broke how are you calling me. That kid makes me so mad (fit). Then he calls me back demanding that I bring him a phone book. Please someone tell me if you don't have a phone why do you need a phonebook. So needless to say I didn't go over there and I didn't bring him a phonebook either. But anyhow I needless to say ended up getting so upset that I had another episode and this one was pretty bad (faint). So I took my medicine and went to bed. Lo and behold my phone starts ringing this morning and it is Alex. I didn't answer it but all I could think was your phone is working fine if you can call me at all hours of the day and night. Than last night I let Sage in the house and needless to say this dog stunk like you would not believe. He definately rolled around in something he shouldn't have. So needless to say I had to give him a bath which ended up being quite humorous. Here I was trying to drag this dog who decided he was going to sit down and not budge. I ended up threatening to take him outside and do it with the waterhose. Then I dragged him to the tub and got his front in and pushed the rest of him in. Needless to say we both got a really good bath. I had to laugh after we got done because he got a bath, I got a bath, and my bathroom floor got cleaned all in one shot LOL. I'm sorry that I don't do anything but complain. I know it is probably getting old with everyone. But I do want to say that this group is the only thing right now that makes me feel better. You all have been so supportive and have given me such great advice and support. I truly do see you all as friends and you all are the only ones I can talk to. I'm tired and I want to cry right now. I have come to the point that I'm thinking of doing a binding on everyone so that they stop their shit. I know this is wrong but I'm at the end of my rope and I really want it to stop. I was doing good and then he calls yesterday and I'm telling you he cussed me like I was a piece of garbage. Then when mom wanted to me to go pick him up and take him to Wal-Mart I told her absolutely not. I didn't want to see him nor was I putting him in the same car as me. So needless to say she took him to Wal-Mart. If she thinks he is such an easy person and that all you have to do is talk to him let her do it. Trust me after a while when she tells him no he will turn on her just like he does with me. But I know she doesn't believe that anymore because if she did she would not keep trying to get me to deal with him all the time. But anyhow. I am heading to the Topics Section. I want to get a few things off of there. I will talk to everyone later. Again everyone thank you for all your support. And if I'm complaining to much you can tell me to shut up. I appreciate all your help and support. I hope everyone has a great day.
May the road rise to meet you.










So here is to another day, I am off today and am going to look up some natural flea cures
Those little suckers won't go away!!!!!!!! I don't even have carpeting anywhere but room so the bebe's are off limits in here during flea season
I get really sick if I get too may bites!!!!! Used flea stuff on the animals and can't afford the spray for the furniture in the LR....

The hard part is understanding what it is we are supposed to be learning and move with it, move past it, go to the next thing.
They all stayed in the yard, playing games and talking girl talk all night long. I had to go outside a few times during the night to tell them they were getting to loud, but they were all good. Of course mom (That's me! 
But, Mom told me today that my brother had gone into the genealogy of my Father's family and it turns out that rather than coming directly from Scotland, there was a major branch that came from Ireland!! Way cool. Such an interesting thing to learn nowadays (I'll be 40 next month!) Woohoo!! Damn, where's me pint and me shagleileigh? I knew they were around here somewhere! 

