Hello,
For over a year now I have felt my very soul being poisoned by hate. I used to be a very happy person, but now I have so much hate filled in me, and I can't stand it.  I want to be the person I used to be. Happy, sweet, and always gave people the benifit of the doubt. It all started when we moved into our new apartment a year and a half ago. I have tried putting up magickal barriers around my apartment, but it is not working. It keeps bad spirits away, but not the bad vibes.
Let me explain a little about myself so that you can get a better understanding of where I am as of now.
I like to be helpful, I respect nature, my elders, other cultures and races, most religions, rules even though I think some of them are ignorant, Myself, family, friends, and much more. I believe in karma, and the 3 fold rule. I have been told I am soft spoken, I listen much and try not to talk to much unless I know what I am talking about. I am shy at first, then very open once I get to trusting someone.
Now to let you know what the problems are....
My apartment complex is full of ignorant, rude, selfish, mean, hateful, people. :roll:   Not everyone is like this here, but there are more than not.
I live in a very diverse cultural complex. We have many different faces, and religions here.
I have never been a racesist before I moved here, and I don't believe that I am racesist now, but I do have problems with the Black Americans that live here. Not all of them, just a handfull.
There are some Black American family's who let their children run around the complex trashing everything, being extremely loud, breaking rules, damageing property, and threatening others. These parents do not control their kids at all. In fact they encourage them to be this way. No matter how many letters I give to our office staff, these family's are not getting into trouble, or being evicted over such things. I have even sent in proof of some of the things the kids do, and nothing is done about it. To top things off, the Office staff takes their sweet time in getting anything done around here. I have been waiting well over a Month to have the things in my apartment fixed, and we have a friend who lives here and he is living in the worst conditions ever, his ceiling is falling in, and he has black mold growing on the ceiling and walls. Dangerous conditions to live in, and very unsanitary. But still nothing is done.
As you can see I have a lot to be upset about.  I know what your thinking, why doesn't she just move her family out of this complex. Easier said then done. We just don't have the money to do so. It really isn't a bad place to live, it is just some of the people and lack of maintance that makes it a little unbareable.  The majority of peole here keep to themsleves, or stick to their cultures. It is the handful that makes life difficult to live. If our office would get rid of them things would be much nicer around here.  
I need some kind of a solution to help me feel more like myself. That sweet kind, person who loves to help out others, and loves to enjoy nature.  My plea to you all is do any of you have any ideas on how to get my soul back on track, and balance my life again. And yes my Auras are unbalanced too.
Thank you for reading my ranting and raving.
Aradya (temper)

Well for one it sounds to me like bad vibes were already there when you moved in.  Did you preform a clensing?  A barrier won't keep out what is already there so try getting the bad vibes out.  Burn some sage and frankinsences, maybe sprinkly some seasalt and the get to work with your broom.  It might help.

As for those kids, kill 'em, with kindness I mean.  (Unless you have a really good hiding place ) Try to talk to them, be friendly to them and they might just be a bit more respectful to you, if no one else.  Often when kids act out they are begging for attention and obviously they aren't getting it from mom and dad.  You'd be amazed how much diffrence just sharing a plate of cookies and conversaon can make.  Esspecially with children who are not always good at expressing their feelings in an appropriate manner.

Also have you been meditating?  I know it can be hard to find time (I don't always find time either) but it really does help you feel calm and more centered.

Other than that I haven't a clue.

Aradya, I certainly can sympathize with you.  I grew up in a white neighborhood, and always thought that all colors are the same under the skin.  Then I had to live in a place like you are living in and I discovered that's not necessarily true.  I still give people a chance, no matter what color they are, but sadly enough, I often find that those of one race are more likely to cause trouble than those of other races.  

I believe in the law of three also, but if I am being hurt or threatened, I throw caution to the winds.  Simple spells, to at least keep the people from bothering you (not to hurt anyone) are a possibility.  I don't do it often, but I have done spells like that in the past, they worked, and I have yet to suffer for it.  Maybe in the next life I will, lol, but I'm not in the next life now, I have to get through this one as best I can, and I don't intend to be hurt by people who cannot be controlled, and have no respect for me and my property.

Thank you. These suggestions are helpful. I will try them asap.  It never crossed my mind to cleanse the apartment. Duh! Why didn't I think of that before. I guess my mind was so cluttered it didn't get thru.  I have tried the killing them with kindness, but failed. These kids really don't have any respect for themselves so it is hard for them to respect anyone or anything else.
I have been on the forums checking things out and it is really helpful. I feel that I have hope! I will keep in touch to let everyone know how things are going.
Thank you again.
Aradya

Aradya, it doesn't make you a racist to hate the behavior of these juvenile delinquents. I suspect you'd feel the same if they were Caucasion, Asian, Hispanic or any other race. These kids sound to me like they are the children of people who've had their share of trouble with the law. I've been in law enforcement for over 24 years and these kids sound like future inmates of America. Personally, I'd move from that complex as soon as possible (because if I didn't, I'd turn the little jerks into missing persons ). I suspect the "office staff" doesn't act on any complaints because they are either affraid, or they know that nothing will happen to these kids if they take legal actions against them. The juvenile justice system is a joke. You'll never convince me that these "kids" committed whatever crimes because they didn't know any better (even though thats what their lawyers would have you believe). And believe me, these brats know the system and go out of theie way to manipulate the living hell out of it :!: I believe that we all are born with a sense of right and wrong, and that you always have a choice to go one way or the other. These little bastards choose to do bad things- nobody is making them do it. Good luck with whatever you decide to do.

Blessings,

Draco

aa) � �Wild applause for Draco. �My son and husband are also in law enforcement, and you speak the truth. � Sometimes we have to do whatever we have to do in order to protect ourselves. �As witches, we have energies at our disposal which other people do not, so if we are being hurt, I think it's just fine to use whatever means necessary. �As long as the intention is personal safety and protection, not revenge and harm to others, then I think the Karmic responsibility is on the people causing the trouble, and not the one trying to save him/herself.

Aradya if you are living with mold and the building owners/maintenance are doing nothing I would contact the health department, black mold is especially dangerous. You could try a bleach solution to clean it off, but if there is mold a lot of time it will just come back because the underlying cause hasn't been corrected. Snotty bratty kids whos parents only brought them into the world as a way to collect from welfare and chairties are another matter entirely. I feel bad for them, but often their parents have turned them into "mini mes" before anyone else has a chance to influence them. Still, by sizing up a few kids who may still be reachable and making friends with them you may have a chance to affect how they treat you.
Cleansing is absolutely the way to start, in fact you might want to do an intial cleansing and then wait a month and do a second for good measure.
Try to keep pleasant aromas and beautiful things around your apartment (inside mostly or they will likely disappear) and maybe some soft music or ambient sound recordings? Sometimes too especially when it is a matter of poverty mostly that creates a bad situation those around you will notice you doing things to make things more pleasant and begin to try to create a better invironment for their own family.
From what you say the building managers don't give a fig what goes on.If you can afford it you might put in a request to paint your apartment or even just a room, I would choose a soft soothing color (depends on your furniture etc.) but it makes things calmer. Maybe put some sample chips up to see how you feel with them? If that's not possible, try framing pictures that you like and  putting them up.
Get out a phone book or newspaper and start looking for community services....when my kids were young one that they enjoyed was a story reading afternoon at a local library nearby. The librarian once told me they were ready to cancel the program until I started taking my kids and the rest of the neighborhood kids started to follow! You might ask for a few flyers from those kinds of programs, not knowing the area its hard to know what will be available.
Figure out what type of energy you want in your home and your life and begin to create it. There are lots of ideas here, just use the side bar or search functions. You can find aromatherapy ideas, feng shui, advice on colors and spells to help create harmony. You can stream music you like from here also, altho I have to admit as far as music goes I generally fall back on my ipod or shuffle (the nano looks awesome but $$$) none of that kind of spending for me these days.
We will be sending thoughts/prayers and energy your way too....
If you are still stuck, or if you get stuck again along the way just let us know. We are here and will try to dig up as much info as possible.
Bright Blessings

Thank you everyone, things are looking better now. Maintanace is taking care of everything, we even got new carpet out of it. Management is working with us too. The kids are still lingering around, but not as much and not the same kids.  My camera phone has become my best tool when handling them. I stand on my balcony and act like I am going to take pics of them all and they all scatter.  Mostly because the owner of the car they damaged is looking for pics of them so she can take them to court. My husband and I are about the only ones who keep an eye on the neighborhood around here. There are a few others but we are it on this side. :roll:  
I am feeling more positive.  I did some crafting, and painted some old things to look like new.  My apartment is looking so much nicer and more homely.  The weather here has been cool, and I like that autumn feel.  We will have a little extra cash in our pockets next month too. That is always a blessing! Things are looking up up up!  The cleansing and positive attitude is helping much. Thank you too all of you for your great advice and help.
Blessing to All. (clap)  (love)
Aradya

Glad to hear things have gotten better!

Glad your situation seems to be improving Aradya . Just be careful when recording the little brats. I wouldn't want you and your family/friends becoming targets of these little gangsters.

Blessings,

Draco