I know this isn't as active as it used to be, but you guys have known me since I was a teenager (I think I was 15-16.  I'm turning 28 this summer, despite many mental illnesses, a horrible abusive relationship and other mishaps, but I survived).

I live further north, but still in Alberta.  I'm now a professional, or at least semi professional Tarot reader.  I taught myself in about a month (that shouldn't be a surprise considering how fast I learn) by basically memorizing the cards and forming storytelling relationships between each card to get an understanding of what the correlation was in a spread.  I've been doing it now for about 7 months.

Anyways, I wanted to sort of give you guys an update on how I was doing, and that yes I was alive, and that I'm okay.  I'm not trying to self-promote, I'm just trying to let you guys know I'm safe.  It's just a 4 minute interview about my survival story.  Sorry it's a little quiet.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cuYfTuFpgZU

Anyways, I wanted to thank you so much for being there for me when I was younger, and giving me the structure I needed as a foundation for my spirituality.  I didn't know how important spirituality would be when I was faced with suicide and didn't know where I would end up.  I decided that the Gods weren't done with me yet, they put me here for a reason.  The cards followed me here for a reason, and I needed to use them.  So I did what I did when I was younger.  I studied my butt off just like I did with Wicca and Witchcraft.  I might not be Wiccan, but I'm still a Witch.

I'm not going to tell you what happened in the past 5 years.  To be honest, it's still too painful, especially the past 2 years.  I  will tell you that 2 years ago I moved to a small town 2 hours north of where I used to live, so I'm still close to my family, but far away enough that I feel safe.  2's are great for new beginnings.  I have a dog named Mya who is a Labrador wolf cross (I've no idea, that's apparently what the DNA said, but she's awesome!), and I'm in a new  relationship that is secure, safe, and loving.   I'm skittish, so I know he's frustrated a little bit, but he's patient.  I'm Chairperson for Beyond the Heart Clubhouse - a program specifically designed for adults with mental illnesses -as well as an unoffical spokesperson, as I've done several interviews off the cuff, such as that one in the video.

So yeah.  Thank you Pagan Living.  Even though I speak very little here, you have all known me for a very long time.  I'm still here because you listened to a very sick, very niave little girl who had a lot of heart and compassion - and still does.  Thank you for being here.

Hi! Glad to see you back and to hear how well everything is turning out. I know it has been a battle but your doing great! You ought to stop in and give us antidotes of you travels through the tarot? I for one would be very interested.

I also had a wolf dog hybrid they are the most awesome dogs! he was part wolf/malamute and he was scary to everybody but the most gentlest cuddle bug you'd ever see. hmmm Don't know if your interested but next time you brush em save some of that undercoat and make you a witch bottle..... lots of protective powers in a wolfs fur.  

Glad to see you back! I will check in more frequent so I don't miss ya.......big Bunny hugs.