Such is the night of Novia. think someone is trying to tell me something?

First had a heart attack at work and no one knew how to get ahold of hubby. Went into blackness thinking I am going to die alone. Poor hubby will not know what happened to me, he will think I finally just kept driving. if I don't die, I will lie all alone in the hospital.

Second. Some crazy woman stalking me, beating me into near death. i wake up crying that I don't want to die, because they are taking tubes uot of me. I have a large gaping hole in the middle of my lower back with green guk running out of it.

third. I am lying half dead in a hospital. I had left because hubby ha dbeen unfaithful. I moved to a slummier than slum place, and had been attacked by a stranger. I needed him. I lived thru it, not sure for how long. I finally reached out to him. he was frantic with worry as he had been searching for me, he had lost me.

I went home again.

I confronted him about HER. her name seems important. Opene.

He was with her because he gave her things he needed.

Structure.

Respect.

Decisions making. (not wishy washy)

These are issues at home.

I have lost the structure I once had. Have been scattered for the past 7 years or so.

He feels the kids don't respect him, they are a bit mouthy and don't pay attention to what he says sometimes. he growls alot but they know he's harmless. I growl and bite and they know it. Throw shit too!

I don't like to say, let's do this' because I don't wnat to do something he doesn't really want to do, but is doing because I want to.

Needless to say when I woke up this morning. I was wide awake.

Hubby had not left yet, and i had to hang onto him for a spell. he knew something ws wrong, I just blew it off to bad dreams.

I feel 'changed somehow.'

I HAD to light 3 incenses. 2 sandalwood, and 1 Jasmine.

Personally I'd rather it not be thru nightmares thank you very much!!! LOL

gonna do some serious thinking on all this.

TY CM

O my that sounds like a lot to take in from one night!!

Good luck piecing through (what I know you wrote down the things that seemed important!