Everything comes at the cost of something else.  I know that.  I also know that magick workers, above all others, have a duty to honor this truth.  But I don't have to like it.

I have nightmares.  Not the most moving statement for someone else to read:  but believe me, they're not pretty.  I have dreams where everyone I knew in BASIC is being carried off or is carrying off others, covered in blood and more wounds then I can relate.  I have dreamt of cave-people ripping out my heart, and then controlling me with it.

These are my usuals.  Sometimes they're worse, sometimes they're a little better...but this is the status quo.

There's a thousand ways of stopping nightmares.  I could think of twenty without bothering to crack a BOS.  But I know these nightmares are due to some indigestion or even my depression...they're the cost of seeing what is to come.  You see, I'm one of those witches with a family background - my lineage extends back at least as far as the priestesses-before-the-Druids in the North, and the Oracle at Delphi in the South.  When I first told my mother a dream-that-came-true, she barely reacted.

Now I face them as an adult.

I see the wars my family and friends fight in.  I see gore and anger and hatred.  I don't want to, but denying this sort of gift is actually worse then having it:  it's the core of my intuition, and one of the few reasons I've lived this long.  To give up this gift means I no longer have the ability to see good people from bad, or to know which path holds the most danger for those I love.

So I have nightmares.  They eat my soul and torment my waking hours, but I cannot give them up.

Life's a bitch.

Wow,
         All I can say is thank-you.  I thought I was alone in this.  I don't have as many nightmares now that I started meditating, but trust me, they sound very close to yours.  The psychic dreams haven't stopped, but I know they're more frequent.  You don't have to answer this question if you don't want, do you think you're depressed because of the dreams, or is it something that goes with the package, so to speak.  I sometimes have to fight depression, though I don't think that I have anything to be depressed about.  
                                                              marigold

That's something I've been wondering about for a while now.

I know part of my depression is from chronic pain:  but the family has a long history of mental illness.  In particular, depression, alcoholism, and joining the military.  

Seriously, though:  there seems to be something about enhanced minds that attracts mental diseases.  Sometimes it's just a case of not being able to reconcile what is perceived with what the world sees, and sometimes I honestly think that the same stuff that allows us to see messes with our head in other ways.

In any event:  I am truly glad you responded.  It's nice not to be alone in this!!!!!!