I don't even know why I am here in the "closet" but I can literally feel the secrets and such eating away at my ulcers (you should see the pic's of my belly ...eeewwww! Goddess I just want to get out, I just want to speak my own mind without being in fear, I just want to say no sometimes, I just want to be me before I forget who I am.....Thats all folks........

*hugs* I know it's not much but maybe it'll help a little

Lav sweet heart I'm not sure what the problem is, but it truly sounds like there is a problem.

is there something we can do to help, besides give you a shoulder to cry on, or a hall to scream in?

anyways, huggles and tigger pounces to you!

Thank you both, hugs always work...just needed to say it out loud so to speak, now to do something about it!!!!!!  Definately app[reciate your concern....
Love and Light,
Lavendar-Ice

what ever we can do.

sometimes just verbulamatizing things helps!  (yes that's a wurd!   )

Good Morning

Awww.....LavenderIce, that is a rotten place to be in!  Sometimes it happens though, when we aren't living our truth, when we are over-controlled, it becomes smothering....and yes, it will eventually make us sick.  So now....you have a choice (as always)  to move forward and be who you are, stand in your truth and make the necessary changes, or to keep on the way things have been going.   I realize that this is easier said than done!  Change is always challenging in whatever form it comes in.  You are such a sweet soul, you deserve the best life that you can live but.....you have to create it.  No one else will do it for you (unfortunately)  And in some situations it is definately hard.  Remember that you are loved beyond measure.   You can BE the change you want to see.  And...you have this place, this sanctuary to come to anytime for some sweet advice and some warm hugs from the wise brothers and sisters here.  

Gentle hugs to you this morning Lavender
Many blessings and may the Goddess protect and guide you
Aleea

Thank you sweetie, Ihave done an exercise out of the Book of  Runes that I have and my life spread is exactally where I am Lessons to be learned, mysteries, etc.   I do know that I am the only one who can change things, and the worse things get the harder I am trying to make that "foundational" change, and yes, it is hard, barely can see the light, but I know that it is there for me, and someday I can be who I am and live how I want, putting the wheels in motion for a while now...my Runes also tell me that I have to ave patience because none of this is gonna happen overnight......sooooo just happy to be able to have the castle and its people(my friends) to keep me grounded and sane!!!!! Life is filled with magick, ex: the other day I couldn't access the book that everyone is reading online and now, thanxs to someone (don't think I haven't noticed) I can read it (need to do it quickly, just can't make a big enough payment for them to leave my comp./cable on long enough!!!!!  But, it is something I need to practice, so Thank you to the powers that be and thank you Aleea!!!

Love and Light, Lavendar-Ice

You are very welcome Lavender, it sounds like you are coming from a space knowing that it will take some time and the wisdom to see that small steps will definately get you there, maybe not as fast as you want, but it will get you there.  Don't be afraid to say no sister, you betray yourself when you do not say no to please another. I used to be afraid to say no and it has only been the past few years that I truly am ok with it.  It is hard, so I totally hear you with that one!

What book is that?? � �The one on the internet?? � It piqued my curiousity....lol.

Much Love
Aleea

Hee, Hee, Yes sweetie, they started a wonderful discussion group on one of the e-books, The Greatest  Secret.....(I cheated, since they may be cutting my power again and I may not be able to partake in the discussions, I just printed 1/2 of the book!!!!)  Thank you , I missed you!!!!

Lavendar-Ice

Hi Lavender hun
my heart goes out to you.  Knowing you have friends here for you I hope brings you love and comfort.
You are in my thoughts
Love and light hun
wiccafrog xxxxxxxxx  (bunny)