Just a little rant...a little rage...so angry this morning...not sure why....my dog got loose which threw me into a tizzy because of course since i didnt train her or spend anytime with her, she wont come to me when i call...so of course she took off and i am at her whim if she decides to come back...i am so angry at myself...job is driving me insane with their corporate bullcrap...i can run all their deliveries for them as long gas is out of MY  pocket...No one cares...my poor Love is not sure what is wrong with me...i dont know. it started yesterday with a delivery of food that leaked all over my car now the seat smells like buttery green beens, when i get back my boss says i will have to give back the 10$ for gas because (god forbid)  the store will be short...but the manager in question doesnt mind helping out the "poor Mexican salad bar ladies" whenever they need it(no disrespect intended)  I try and pray to the Goddess but my anger is so strong that i fly off the handle and nothing helps that burning knot in the pit of my stomach....so in trying to help my dog, and spray some stuff on her ears so the flies dont eatr her ears, she wiggles out of her collar and she is gone....no collar and of course she ont come to me  so goddess knows how i am going to get this dog back on her chain....maybe i am just not made to love anything, maybe i am not made to take care of anything..maybe i am doomed to a life a selfishness only thinking of me and how things affect me...I am soo angry right now,,,at myself my job the people i work with who claim they are my friends but dont hear me when i have a problem, i always give advice and everyone seems to aske me for advice, but  know one has a shoulder for me to lean on...no one has a ear to lend to me when i feel like crap...my child wont call me...my family doesnt seem to want to see me...oh yea unless i instigate it, why do i have to be the one for people to lean on, why do i have to initiate the first stepps everytime????  maybe i dont but it sure feels like it...when is someone going to take care of me??? oh yea thats right  i am a grown woman time to take care of myself!! right?!  Goddess help me....

just me ranting
sylverk

Goddess must be feeling me today...Doggie is safe and sound in her yard......


sylverk