Had the oddest, most vivid dream, nearly a nightmare last night. I usually don't have recall, so for this one to still be clear in my head, well....

There were hoards of people flowing out of town, the streets were filled with them, like out of a horror movie 'when zombie attack'!  i culd feel they were all filled with rage, primal rage. Me and three others fled to a room we had built down in the basement, and barrracaded ourselves in. We could hear them as they broke thru the front door, hollering come out, come out, where ever you are! It was like they were filled with something, not human, looking to erracicate, or change over, those who were not inflicted. One woman found us, she was alone. For some reason, I unlocked the door and pulled her into our sanctuary. She had a weapon, a knife I think, she wanted to kill me, no questions asked, and then told me once I was dead, she would turn the others. i wasn't fearful, I looked deeply into her eyes, and could sense 'she' was still in there, deep inside, but still full of life and love. I filled with this most awesom light and energy and let it flow outward, pleading with her to remember something, someone, that she loved, really loved. that she didn't want to hurt people, 'she didn't, it was whatever had taken over her that did, to fight it, to let the love fill her heart and the darkness would be gone, I promised. I could feel the darkness welling up into one little space, trying to gather itself. I reached over, placed my hand over where it was pooled, and literally let it flow up into my arm. Teh pain was excruciating, but I could see her eyes fill with tears, as I fell to the floor. When I came round, everyone there was standing over me, one person had my head in their lap. they told me how the darkness just seemed to flow out of my arm and vanished, like a puff of smoke in this intense ball of light. The young woman told us we had to leave town, that this town was too overcome, I couldn't though, not yet. she led a few others down to us, and one by one, I did  the same thing, brought the light back into their hearts. there were maybe a dozen of them who had came into our home. Now, we could leave, but the dozen they stayed, promising me they would not ever again fall victim to the darkenss that had consumed them, that they would carry on for me here, that I needed to get someplace safer.

Moving on to an old farm building. Another of the dark one's found us, he had a gun, an older black man, who nonchalantly informed me if he could look his granny in the eyes and shoot her right between them, I didn't stand a chance. Again the light filled me, and I drew on his love of his grandmother, and pleaded with him, to find that love she had for him, to let it in. I could see his granny, she was a plump old woman, full of life and love (yes, she was s spirit, but still she was full of life) she laid her hand over his darkenss, and told me to keep talking to him, it was working, so I did, I let my light combine with her love, and again, the darkness gathered together, and I stepped forward, knowing what I needed to do next, she told me to stop, he would take this with her, to save my strength for the coming battles. The darkness moved into her, and she and it just disipated like smoke. the man, he stood there and sobbed like a small child, so filled with so many emotions I thought I too might explode! he crumpled to the ground and just sobbed and sobbed. He seemed full of such a light.

This same type of thing happened for several more 'battles', each time I felt more and more drained. I woke up several times dutring al of this, feeling exhausted, and when I fel back asleep, i returned back to this same 'dream'.

Now on to the latter of the 'episodes'. things were not nearly s dark. there were far far far fewer of the dark one's about. i was not sure if they had fled, or what. I returned home with my family, and we werepassing by the auditorium, and it was full of people, my first instinct was to flee, becasue I could feel this energy, adn after all we had been thru thusfar, I feared we had happened back onto a massive gathering of them. Then I let myself reach out to test and see, and one came out, beconning me inside. it was the very first lady! the place, it ws filled with people who had overcome the darkness!!! She introduced me to them, as her saving angel, her guiding light. In the crowd were also several others I had 'battled' with, but the most of them were one's who had been 'saved, by those I had saved. She let me know that in my efforts of my few, it grew in numbers, the light, that they intrun returned the light to others, spreading it round the world, erradicating the darkness, that int time, it would be gone, forever. I never felt so much love in one place before. oddly, I could still feel the odd energy I had felt before. She explained to me, that even though the darkness was gone, they were changed, for the good yes, but to ever forget how the darkness felt, it's intoxicating enrgy, would be to give back into it again. she said she knew I understood what she meant, and believe you me, I DO understand the draw, the power, the intoxication of the darkness!

I slept for nearly 9 hours last night, and I never sleep that long!

Ok, went over to the divination suite and here is my 3 card draw.

1. Past: What happened to affect the current situation.
Ace of Wands

Epiphany  

To the South, a spark ignites the magic wand standing ready in the forest. The shamans gathered on a mountaintop nearby know their call has been answered. One by one, they release their spirits and fly to the flames. To the flames! Where they circle again around the sacred burning staff. Before the alchemical fire they flail and dance, melding the sexual embrace of the body with the driving force of the creative mind.

In the card the Ace of Wands blasts a hole through the humdrums of  normality. It invites is to step into the fire and passion that created the Universe. The wand sizzles and shoots flames transforming everything around it into molten and fluid possibility. Fire destroys, but it prepares the ground for regeneration and new beginnings. New opportunities are symbolized by the twigs of new growth on the sides of the wand. The wand's flaming eye, encircled by a Tibetan mandala, is the cosmic mystery peering through the purifying aspect of fire. Together the eye and the mandala represent the unity we experience during those precious spiritual moments when we see that everything is so intimately connected as to be aspects of a singular being. Wands are the epiphany as it is experienced through creativity and sexuality. The snake of our rising power climbs the wand as if it were our spine. On its way up it burns through our blocks to passionate creativity and opens us to the potential of transformative experiences.

Divinatory Meaning

Should the Ace of Wands appear in your reading, take life's challenge and walk on fire. What's blocking the power of your own magic and creativity? Whatever it is, the Ace of Wands just burned a hole through it. Now it's up to you to overcome your fears and transform your imagination into reality. Take the reins of your passion and let its power convince you of your ability to change the world.

2. Present: Current circumstances.
2 High Priestess

High Priestess, Mighty Isis, and Sophia we honor the mysterious fountain of wisdom hidden deep within your body. Mysteriously you transform the pure spirit of the cosmos into messages, memories, and imagination. You are gnosis: knowledge of the universe revealed by inspiration and insight. Psychically you guide us to inner healing and strength and bless us with the powers born of intuition.

For the Priestess, wisdom flows from an intuition found within the body as well as the mind. She is the understanding behind all thought. She is the dream behind all form.

In the card the primal light of the universe veils the Priestess. She rises proudly from the mother on a crescent moon born skyward by a whirl of clouds. She completely trusts her intuitive abilities and stands confidently in her dreams, reflections, and cycles. Anchored this way, she reaches up to the great spirit and pulls down a beam of pure creative imagination into the grounded center of her body. These energies prepare the soil for the celebration of the union of spirit and matter that will take place in the Empress. The motion of her arms draws a lotus Mandela of light rays and fallopian spirals. Potential uncoils from her and loops around its own path, eventually returning to the center. The spiral is the shape of wisdom. It expresses unity through duality by being a line in three dimensions. It is the ever-outward that is ever-inward. Meanwhile, flowers from other dimensions snow gently down, and in their openness reflect the receptivity of the Priestess to the wisdom of the pure spirit. This inner harmony of spirit and matter is the basis for her intuitive knowledge. Behind her, yet also creative vision for the future, a meadow bursts into a perfectly intricate self-regulating and organic wholeness that science can only hope to reproduce.

Divinatory Meaning

Should the Priestess summon you in a reading, check on your psychic confidence level. The Priestess teaches us that power and independence come from our ability to trust our intuitive natures. Are you listening to your inner wisdom? What are your dreams saying about your inner reality? Are you hiding something from yourself and others? Intuition is often down-played in our highly analytical culture, but we ignore Priestess wisdom at the expense of a wider understanding of the world. In order to attain her powerful psychic abilities, mix patience with silence and memory. Tune in to the synchronicities bombarding your present reality. Follow her example by finding your center of power and pulling the universe into it. When you trust your instincts, you trust yourself.

3. Future: What will happen if nothing is changed.
1 Magician

Appear, disappear, reappear, the improbable, the unreal explodes before your eyes in puffs of smoke. Now you see it, now you don't. Still struggling to explain it, are you? Suspend your disbelief! I pierce your flimsy veil of appearances and reveal to you the many realities lying just beyond you. Don't fret. You'll make it back to Kansas, but you'll never look at it the same way again.

The Magician creates the conduit between the cosmic mind and earthly reality. The glowing golden wand at the center represents this conduit. With sleight of hand, the Magician conjures the elements with his wand: air butterfly, water fish, earth flower, and fire-spirit mushroom suddenly appear in the circle of his moving hands. They each have eyes to remind us all that is not as it appears to be. We can be tricked into thinking that the wand creates the elements out of the cosmic either. But it could just as easily be that the energies behind the elements create the wand. Is it this or that? Neither or both? Perhaps he is signaling some force in another of those realms beyond our common understanding. The Magician awes us with the mysteries of an omnipotent universe.

His winged feet and the intertwined snakes around them remind us of his connection to Mercury, the Roman messenger god, intermediary between heaven and earth. The Magician could be the energy enabling us to communicate with the great spirit in all that surrounds us. Indeed the Magician conjures consciousness and out of the unconscious cosmic seas in order for us to see who we really are. Like the Fool, the Magician relies on trickster energy. Whereas the Fool is eternally playful and undirected, careening from experience to experience, the Magician is playful and directed. If we let him, his magic will initiate us into the mysteries of self-realization. He forces us to go deeper, to ask why, to wonder. The self-consuming double snakes around his ankles form an infinity sign that seems to trap the Magician in some formless reality where he remains detached from his body. But the wily shape shifter only appears to be chained by formless infinity. Like Houdini, he slips away and reappears in his body, to the relief of the audience. His secret could be that he is not bound by time yet plays in it. The Magician is a seasoned trans-dimensional traveler who can simultaneously be here now and bear witness to the birth of the cosmos. He dips his toe in the pool of time and ripples the dawn that illuminates our path.

Divinatory Meaning

Should the Magician appear in your reading, be aware of the multiple realities existing simultaneously in your time-limited world. Do you see how the Magician's ability to combine intense focus with playfulness is his essential ingredient to success? As he symbolizes communication, focus your interactions with the world around you. Do you listen to other people, to birds, to the wind as carefully as you could? Is there something you need to tell someone but you are not sure how? Use magic to help you communicate that which resists being captured by words. If faced with a difficult choice, see how the Magician flows between hardened options of this or that and offers you previously unknown possibilities. The Magician transmits back and forth between the physical plane and the cosmic mind. His message is the ultimate unity of all things. Know that as a part of this unity you an conjure the energies swirling around you to dazzle your audience.