Yet another piece from me today. Well, i should be off complaining about how the people that i work with on assignments in my line of study are even lazier than I am, leaving everything to the last minute and throwing tasks for me to do; but i've another "view" just a short while before writing this that i understand as the need to maintain balance.

I came back home from school, tired as can be, with the lift out and having to walk 15 floors up to my home. When i got back into my room, i laid down and turned to rest; but not before trying to think of a solution to my messed up energies and everything else. Then i had this thought, I need some help from a far more advanced entity than those whom i've been interacting with whom has enough foresight and insight to tune things right.

So i asked the one almost everyone on Earth knows as Lucifier, yes the same one that most think of as the ultimate evil of some kind. But for those who don't know, i won't go into the background of things, except i'll say that Jehova aka Christian/Muslim God is also someone i consult occassionally; so we can think of ourselves what this means.

As usual, old Enki(as i used to address him) doesn't really solve very much directly, i'm not sure how these upper plane entities work but i know that something was done aside from the re-vitalization of my tired body and mind. When i closed my eyes, the usual blackness i see warped into some sort of abstract picture, (likely for my easy intepretation) I could perceive a vague humanoid shape surrounded by what could be described as white fire, this was followed by the image warping into a white humanoid shape surrouded by black fire.

After this, with eyes still closed i mentally enquired if it meant something, i got the "eyes" of the humanoid to "flare", i took it as yes and it strangely occured to me that i was time for me to go closer to complete balance of some kind, and to never forget it.

Well, that's what i could garner, so comments from anyone, even if it isn't really a dream?

I don't think it matters whether it's a dream or reality. It is how YOU see it that matters and if it makes you feel more positive and energised why question it ?

I think that we are all seeking balance in some form - whether that's within ourselves, in our relationships with other people or for the planet as a whole.

What matters is that seeking that balance does not lead to destructive thoughts or heavy heart...

K.
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There's much logic in what you say, we each have our own ways, we each know different things. I question because i wouldn't be here if i did not try, being the weirdest sort to sometimes explain things that can't be explained for the sake of giving it a shot; even if i know its not possible in this life.

Balance in itself would probably right whatever unhealthy aspects one might have, all in due time.

Good Day...

Sometimes what we seek is right ther, we are just so busy looking ahead for it, we fail to see it has found us.

Then again, you may be on a teeter, with no totter.

My advice O, in trying to explain things, sometimes less info, is easier for most to understand.

I still feel you ned to stop looking to 'others' for your balance, but look only to your Self. Yes, you can do that, you nly think you cna't therefore you can't.

Maybe if you stop with the negativity on your own ability to understand, you will find a spark of positive, which will then in turn bring more of the positive.

I think you need to start a daily affirmation to your Self. Leave out the 'others' and focus only on You.

If you continue to see your Self in the manner you are, then you will never get the point of this life, adn well sweety, you are bound to it one more time. So it's either figure it out this go round, or batton down for round two, or whatever round you happen to be on.

Statements like this can never end, though things have to work in all facets, to me focusing too much on the self gives you a limited and narrow perspective over the long run... such is the human mind. I think it may be foolhardy for total relience on one side or the other, that is why i have detachments of the self around, various projections of sections of that "true self".

This life's "point" is merely to experience things souls of our kind won't know or want to know, its a single shot affair for we have many tasks back at hand when we return to our true forms.

Ah Coyote-san, you may not really believe me but i actually have none of the "beliefs" you speak of. I'm not the least bit in line with any religions so to say but rather merely try to go past what most deem as what things are. Different beings have their aspects to take care of, and they are thus in different systems, from what you speak of, you may not seem to have asked enough about the workings of the "system" we call earth. You know, its kind of strange that you appear to presume that i study from some sort of school, when i really don't. I simply ask around from those that have existed alongside me and those whom exist outside of this world.

Unfortunately I don't yet have the human experience to argue upon the lines of self and everything else that's abstract and such, but i've gotten enough information from sources to understand enough for now. Note that i use many human "simplification" terms like "sides" and such, as well as more well-known namings simply because its not very possible to place it in their real terms, things that can't be comprehended by this plane.

I've been keen to understand why everyone seems so sure of why they perceive, saying that the self is what one has full control of. By my own experimentations, i have noted that is not so for generally all beings of this plane, be it physical or not. Even creatures of the "mid" and "high" planes as i explain in my own words are not above being affected by something else through the avenue of so-called self. Everyone may say that it all begins and ends with the one, but have you have thought that the "one" does not really need to end or begin anything, everything else takes care of itself even if everything is former(or is) the one.

"various projections of sections of that 'true self'" - is something that i use to vaguely describe an aspect, *laughs*. Some here know what it means for me, and its quite literal.

My Dearest Orochi. You seem to have grown bolder in your conversing with others these days. LOL

Oh Novia, it is not the matter of boldness or anything like that. Plainly it is the fact that somehow humans grow too sure of themselves, even G agrees to this. I make it a point for myself to alter and change when information gets to me that warrants it as such, I would sincerely like to ask of everyone to not only bother with the self but make a true effort to understand to insumountable complexities that just this planet has. Ask your local youkai/non-human spirits, talk to whichever Earth God/Goddess you wish, most would provide truthful facts if they feel you're suitable for it. And never be too sure of the self, even the most "advanced" of this galaxy(as put in human terms) can be affected through their "self" by others. Trusting it completely especially in physical form where everything is restricted may be rather fool hardy for it can be deceived.

Put simply, I have far too many pitfalls right now in everything that i do. *Laughs* Contridiction is visible in everything that I would speak of, and frankly i lack a lot of general knowledge that most would presumably know of. Its true that you can't know of what I am, and everything without background, this is compounded that i probably seem to be in some kind of delusional state where i myself constantly have to question if i'm still what i am.